I hate that this birthday is going the way it has. Let me explain. Our mom passed away back in May. It was unexpected and she was very young (45). She had a heart attack caused by a blood clot. It was hard for me and my other brother, who is 24, to lose our mother this early in our lives. However, it was even harder on Marshall. To lose your mom at 6 is unfathomable. His world was turned upside down in more ways than one. (Most of the details are too private to discuss on here. Sorry.) The person who loved him most in this world is now gone. Our other brother sees him every Sunday because he lives in the same town. Marshall is surrounded by his family, but it’s not the same.
Today I got a message informing me that a family member took him some treats to school for his birthday. However, he wasn’t the happy little boy that a 6 year old should be, getting to experience his first birthday at school. He looks sad and empty. It was his first birthday without Mom. She should have been there. It breaks my heart. He is at the age where he should be untouchable from the heartbreak that this world can, and does, bring. His only care should be how long he will get away with playing until Mom tells him to stop for the night.
Not fair. I would gladly take his pain away if I could. I would take it all on in an instant. If I could change any part of his life for the better I would skipping a beat.
Not fair at all.
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